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"God is still giving of Himself today."

WHEN I WAS in deepest need, God saw me and stepped in. Without me having to understand what was happening, without requiring me to know anything of the Word or the Spirit. Out of His great mercy, He did what I needed that I couldn’t ask for with any level of “faith.” What I knew in that hour was He loved me far beyond my capacity to take it in. He’d seen Suzanne by name and decided her healing, thousands of years ago. This boggles my mind.

I had an experience with the love of God a number of years ago, before this, and realized its height and depth and breadth is beyond our grasp. It is an ocean with no shoreline. I’ve never been the same since then. I can’t look at people the same. Everyone, everyone is loved by Him. He became one of us forever, so we’d be saved from the complete destruction of sin. He gave up all He was as God to be a baby without memory of heaven, of the Father, or all He’d done, as John 1 says, from the beginning. He had to learn, to mature and grow, and to obey even to giving up His life.

God is still giving of Himself today, as much as we need, however we need it. He accepts us with all our misunderstandings, our lack of knowledge, and our rotten behavior. At no point did He take me to task over how I got where I was. I wasn’t lectured about my mistakes, though much of what happened to me was out of my control. I wasn’t given an exercise plan to strengthen myself so that I can climb out. He lifted me out and healed everything.

I cannot tell you enough how kind our Savior is, how gentle and generous our heavenly Father, or how funny the Holy Spirit, my Papa, is. They are three Persons but they are One. And nothing like the critical, temperamental image painted by the church. I’ve been in church since I was born, have sat in Sunday School and church services of several denominations. I adore them all and all the wonderful people who grew up with me there. There are such great people in the church. And I was told Jesus is love and taught John 3:16 and 1 Peter 2:24 and Isaiah 53:4-5. I learned God saves and heals. I read He is compassionate and merciful. Mix in my mother is a minister, and I’ve worked for her for 26-plus years. I’ve heard her preach Truth again and again. Yet, the darkness spoke so loudly, and God’s Voice, who had spoken to me before, who had shown me unforgettable visions, when He spoke was far louder and sounded nothing at all like we think.

Not in tone or texture or even in weight. But in kindness. In being so … everyday. He doesn’t speak like He knows it all, though you know He knows it all. He never says one word of condemnation. He’d rather hold silent. And did hold silent those times I exploded, when all the pressure became too much and I just had to do something. When I went off script and found myself far in the weeds, He supported me. He led me back to the path, and nothing had changed. He still loved me. He still held the plan of my freedom in His hand.

Our best posture is surrender. In mind, we set down what we think we know and listen to Him instead. We are so wrong on many points, and it is in meeting Him, in knowing He is real and not a myth and so very much BETTER than we could ever dream that we will see heaven.

”… far more wonderful than the human mind can understand.” (Philippians 4:7, TLB)

“… exceeding abundantly above all that we ask or think …” (Ephesians 3:20)

“When I saw him, I fell down at his feet, afraid that I couldn’t tolerate the intensity of the experience, but he gently placed his right hand on me and said, “Don’t be afraid. I am the Beginning and the End.” (Revelation 1:17, Remedy)

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Suzanne D. Williams, Author
www.suzannedwilliams.com
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