Everything's Going To Be Okay

"I am accepted by Him just how I am."

SOMETIMES the trail goes south, in a way you have not intended. This happens when writing fiction. Even writers who outline the story (I didn’t) find moments where what they thought of won’t happen. And so, when you realize you are facing a wall, you stop and start over. I’ve done this for many years. It does not mean failure but revelation. Often what doesn’t work shows you clearly what will.

“There is therefore now no condemnation” means THERE IS THEREFORE NOW NO CONDEMNATION (Romans 8:1), and I’ve decided to take God at His Word. Whatever doubts rise up within me, Jesus loves me, and I am not to blame. I am not to blame for this situation I’ve found myself in. I am not to blame for other people’s decisions nor for the happenings of life around me. Time keeps going forward. That is not my fault. I am not to blame for my reaction to pressure. Where I blew up, I am forgiven. Where I trembled, I am strengthened.

The walls which turn me around continually are my personal preferences, things I don’t want to do because I never do it that way, things I find offensive and work hard to avoid, things I have been taught are sinful. I found out in order to be free, I had to lay them down at Jesus’ feet and be free. He’s heard it all. He’s seen it all. He loves me anyway. Knowing He loves me regardless of my behavior straightens me out, and so I’ve stopped acting that way. And it has pushed me past all that. Our self-destruction is when we destroy ourselves for who we are. My personality is not a sin. Reacting or not reacting in anger are not sins.

Now, the Spirit took away my anger, and frankly, I was angry. But more like a steam kettle that suddenly was lukewarm. He taught me how to handle emotions. 😊

God taught me that I am accepted by Him just how I am. In this ditch. On that hillside. Lost in the weeds. He is never leaving me. I will never be alone. He has glorious things planned for me. Nevermind, sometimes, my head doesn’t believe it. My heart knows Him. He’s seen me, here, in this spot for thousands of years, and He’s made sure to give me reassurances along the way, now that it’s happened, so that when the bad days come, I can’t look away from His face.

There are things I refuse to do no matter what comes against me. 1. Get mad at God. Nothing that happens to me is His fault. He is good and doeth good (Psalm 119:68). He is patient and kind. 2. Give up. God’s timing is talked about, most wishing it were instant. Then blaming God for not being instant. But God created the earth in six days when He could have done it in milliseconds. We must commit ourselves to the process, knowing He knows all things and so what He’s planned is perfect.

My way out is inept and half-hearted. I’m second guessing everything I see, everything I do. But when He’s in it, and in control of it, when I surrender to Him, then everything’s going to be okay. I tell myself this daily. Hourly. And keep my heart in worship of His beauty. I stay in His Presence, face-first in His Word, aswim in His promises. For what I do not deserve is what He is doing in me, and His ending is the only one possible.

“God shows love in everything that he does.” (1John 4:8 EasyEnglish)

“We also trust him to love us all the time. God always shows love.” (1 John 4:16 EasyEnglish)


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Suzanne D. Williams, Author
www.suzannedwilliams.com
www.feelgoodromance.com